Wednesday, November 7, 2012

UNGLUED/GMG-Colossians Post

Over the last couple of months I've been a part of some really amazing online Bible Studies. From UNGLUED to the Good Morning Girls Colossians study they have both challenged me as a Mom and Christian to do what I need to do to be "Christ-Like".

From UNGLUED, well, the title says it all. How many times in my past have I come unglued when something wasn't going the way I WANTED it to go or the way I FELT it should go.  God is in control and I need to remember this.  Yes, there are good times to be unglued. But those are few and far in between.  I need to keep my composure and keep my eyes on Christ and let HIM take care of things.

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
~ II Corinthians 10:5 NIV84

Now from the GMG Colossians Bible Study I've really seen it ingrained that we need to encourage each other, pray for each other, love each other, respect each other.  As brothers and sisters in Christ, we are to love each other like Christ loved us.  I know that I get snippy sometimes but through this study I have seen that my primary role as a Christian and a Mom is to be an encouragement.  God wants me to be a lamp, not a lamp-shade.  LET HIS LIGHT SHINE!

Too Long Gone

Wow, too long since my last post.  It's been a busy 6 months.  Daughter off to college, husband has a new job, son in Kindergarten with a rough rocky start (due to daughter leaving home)...I was just about to sit down and breathe a sigh of relief when I did something I didn't think I would do for a while....I signed our son up for the swim team.

Let me explain, I am a little over a year post-swim-mom for four years to a high school swimmer.  Lots of meets, lots of year round practices (thankfully the last two years she could drive herself) and lots of parent involvement. It's been a year and I was feeling pretty free.  I'm back exercising, quilting, reading, taking care of the house...and I go do something like sign our son up for swim team...so four nights a week I'm driving him to practice and home again.  Not a big deal. I WILL have help when daddy is home.  At least, I HOPE I have help when daddy isn't traveling for his job.

Now, I know this will put a little strain on my running time, have to still figure out that one and I know the dog isn't going to be happy but we have to get this little guy some activity in the winter or else he will be indoors all the time and that is NEVER good.

So the challenge will come when I start training for my next 1/2 marathon.  But as a mom, don't we always manage to get everything done we HAVE to get done?


Tuesday, June 5, 2012

TIME TO GET BACK TO RUNNING!!!

Whew, May sure was a PACKED month for our family.

1. Athletic signing for Janessa, acceptance of an Academic Scholarship to Converse College.
2. Janessa's 2.4 mile open water swim in the Cooper River "Get Under It" swim.
3. Diva 1/2 Marathon for me.
4. T-Ball for LJ
5. Finished my first quilt.
6. Graduation for LJ from K5 at Sangaree Christian School and Daycare and subsequent registering him for Summer Camp and Kindergarten at Westview Primary.  Yes, Mommy cried when he left Sangaree...
7 Awards ceremony for Janessa.
8. JANESSA GRADUATING FROM HIGH SCHOOL!!!

Yes, that last one is in all caps for a reason. What a day!  It seems like every week had more and more items packed in it over the month of May culminating with Janessa's graduation on June 2, 2012 from Stratford High School.  After graduation we had a cookout for her and the girl across the street with all the neighbors. What a nice afternoon and evening.  Then about 8:30 she left on a trip with her Mom to go on a cruise.  It was REALLY strange to have her graduate and then immediately leave for a week. Even her little brother was upset at her leaving.  Should be interesting come August when we take her off to Spartanburg, SC for college. I even had a dream about it.

So now what?  Time to get back to running. I took two weeks off after finishing the 1/2 Marathon on the 20th of May and now NEED to get back to running. The weather is nice these days so maybe tonight I will get out for a quick 3 miles.

Random Thought:
LOVE ON YOUR KIDS WHILE YOU CAN BECAUSE BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, THEY ARE ON THEIR WAY OUT THE DOOR TO START THEIR LIFE.  TEACH THEM THE WAY TO GO, SHOW THEM WHAT IS RIGHT AND GIVE THEM WINGS.

Friday, May 25, 2012

AHHHH, DE-STRESS DAY

Okay, so you all have already read that I did that 1/2 Marathon last Sunday. I know, you are tired of hearing about it but hey, I'm pretty happy about it.  Today is my ultimate de-stress day.  Typically I don't get a massage on Fridays but I scheduled this post-race massage for 5 days "post-race".  Why?  Well, originally the girl I see doesn't work until Friday and I didn't have time to do it the day of the race.  Good thing. If she had worked earlier this week, I think the massage would have been painful since my quads were killing me for a few days. SO, this afternoon, I go and get a nice massage to help relax those muscles. 

So what are your plans for Memorial Day weekend. Please remember the reason for the day. It's not to begin the summer!  It is for remembering those who have given their life in service of their country. Our brave Soldiers, Marines, Sailors, Coast Guardsmen and Airmen (yes, I put them in order of precedence...the order the flags go in when the Service Flags are presented!). Thank you to all those who have given their life for our Freedom!

Random thought for today:
Thank a Service-member whenever you see them.  Thank them for their service. It means a lot to them to know that people appreciate the sacrifice it takes to write a blank check to The United States of America, up to and including their life!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

DAY 3 OF RECOVERY

Wow, it's now my third day of recovery.  My quads are a bit sore still.

My wonderful husband made me go for a walk last night.  I told him it was about to storm and he said we had time and I needed to go. He was right in that I DID need to go for a walk. He was WRONG that we had time.  I ended up doing a little bit of running to make it home before the storm hit.  Did I mention it was a THUNDERSTORM hence there was LIGHTENING hence I WAS SCARED TO DEATH?????

SO proud of my friend Cheri who ran a 1/2 mile for the first time last night. I know that feeling of pride when you have accomplished something and know that Cheri is ON TOP OF THE MOON right now about it. WAY TO GO!

So now the next time I think I will do a 1/2 will be next April. I really think I need a GOOD base and to lose about 40lbs to enable myself to run better, longer and faster.  So, I'm thinking the Diva 1/2 again.  Not sure if I will do any longer ones between now and then.  Maybe the Awendaw Dirt Dash (Tonya?).  But I will be doing some 5k's just to keep my nerves down.

So what will I do with my time now?  Well, I'm still going to run hopefully 4x a week or maybe 5. I want to work on my core. I also have taken up quilting and want to get a few more quilts under my belt.  I mentioned in a post a few weeks ago I had a special project quilt that I want to make and I still do want to do that one, I'm just waiting to hear back from the intended recipient's son in order to get some of the things I need.  That is all I'm saying for now.  Rest assured, I will be documenting this process though and when I finish that very special quilt, I will share a picture of the quilt.

Now, I do have a lot on my plate. Janessa is graduating and going to college in three months, LJ is in T-Ball, I'm trying to quilt and plan for the graduation party and all the shopping that will need to happen to send Janessa off to college with the items she needs.  Whew, it's been quite a whirlwind lately.

So my random note is:
Love those around you with all your heart.
Give your best at everything you do.
Rest when you need to rest and work when you need to work.
And most of all, PRAISE GOD every chance you get!


Monday, May 21, 2012

I AM A DIVA!!!

Well, I FINISHED!  Not only did I finish, but I finished 17 minutes faster than my first 1/2 Marathon.

So, my goals for this 1/2 Marathon were:
1. Get a Personal Record (PR)
2. Run all of it.
3. Finish in under 3 hours (would definitely be a PR).

Goal number 1.  Done!  I finished in 3:07:01.  That was almost 17 minutes faster than my last 1/2 Marathon.  I guess I can admit that one reason I finished faster was I didn't stop for a potty break (that was 8 minutes last time).  NOW, let me say this, on my Garmin it says my "moving time" was 3:02.15 so I'm not sure where those 5 minutes of not moving were unless it was the times I was going through water stations or something because I only remember stopping once and that was at a full water station.  Regardless, I am very pleased with meeting goal number 1!!!

Goal number 2: Run all of it.  Okay, I didn't hit this goal.  I ran the first 7 miles and then ran/walked the next three then walked the next 2 then ran/walked/ran the last 1.1 miles(with more running than walking).  I know that wasn't running all of it but hey, I've NEVER ran 7 miles straight before...EVER!  So although I didn't hit this goal (which was lofty for sure) I came pretty doggone close.

Goal number 3: Finish in under 3 hours. Okay, I was 7 minutes off but honestly, if I had hit goal 2 I would have hit this one too.

Am I upset I hit only 1 of my 3 goals?  NO WAY! NOT ON YOUR LIFE!  I'm VERY pleased with my race. I was about 1/4 mile from the finish when I spotted my husband and son (bright green shirt/bright orange shirts respectively) and got ALL kinds of choked up.(at that point I was running again).  When I got to them, I was in tears.  LJ slapped my hand giving me a high 5 and Jon said "keep going honey, you are almost there".  I turned the corner still running and saw Janessa....bring on more tears.  Then I saw the finish line. Now, I wasn't sure which of the strips on the ground were for the finish so I ran through all of them.  Pretty sure now the first one was the one.  Regardless, I then saw the "hunky firemen" standing there giving out medals. One particularly buff one didn't have a shirt on (wowzer)...even my husband said he was jealous of that guy.  I didn't get my medal from him...I picked the guy all the way to the right..he was cute too though.  Received my rose.  Water.  Then one of the "entourage" opened my water for me...THEN I saw my family again.  BRING ON MORE TEARS!  I was so emotional.  I had to really hold back the sobs.  I then made my way past the champagne (um, no thanks...not a fan and I'm pretty sure at that point I would have passed out if ANY alcohol would have entered my body).  Had my pic taken and then picked up some fruit, bagel and vitamin water and joined my family.  Overall, it was an AWESOME experience and I'm very very very pleased with how I did.

So, my next goal is to run the whole 1/2 marathon and finish under 3 hours.  But first, I am going to just keep running, lose about 40lbs and THEN pick out my next 1/2 Marathon...and I'm thinking that the Diva 1/2 in North Myrtle Beach will be a good one to do again.  I like the course. I like the fact that it's mostly women.  And the medal is pretty awesome too.  Most of all, I just like finishing!

Random Thought for today:
Even if you don't hit your goals the first time, be proud of your accomplishment in getting out there and just keep trying.

As John J. Bingham says: "The miracle isn't that I finished. The miracle is that I had the Courage to Start". 

Friday, May 18, 2012

T MINUS 2 DAYS

ACK!  Where did the time go.  I'm two days out from the DIVA 1/2 Marathon.  I've done some carb loading this week and am still hydrating. 

I did find out that a friend of mine from high school is running the 1/2 (go Tanya!) and that one of my former co-workers Natalie is running it (she says she's not prepared but WHATEVER!  She's a beast and will do just fine thank you).  I'm excited and WAS nervous until a girlfriend from work posted a saying on facebook about no fear.  Thanks Leslie!

So my goal for this 1/2 Marathon is NO WALKING!  I don't care how slow my pace gets, I WILL NOT WALK!  Now, I am hoping for a personal record and since this is only my second 1/2 Marathon that shouldn't be very difficult.  Honestly I would love to do under 3 hours (I know I know, some of you are saying WOW, THAT'S SLOW) but we shall see.  I'm loving it that my family will be there cheering me on. 

So my random thought for today is pretty simple and something I learned from exposure to some pretty great people:

NEVER QUIT NEVER!!!

I will be writing that on my arm in sharpie early Sunday morning as a reminder.

Friday, May 11, 2012

NEW SHOES AND CHEER

My friend Lori just found out she won a new pair of her dream shoes. Congrats Lori!  She is so excited.

Can't blame her either. I just received two new pair of shoes in the mail this week(one Asics 2160 in blue & white and one 2170...in purple & yellow!!!) that I got for an AWESOME price on a running retail website.  Anyway, I was so excited I figured I would start breaking one pair in.  Now, mind you I know I don't have enough time to break them in before the 1/2 Marathon and that's okay but I would like to have a few good runs in a new pair of shoes.

SO I laced them up and off I went.  Jon went to get LJ so I had a good amount of time to just run. I planned a 5 mile run (and actually planned it correctly...lol) and took off.  About mile 1.78 I crashed...not literally, just ran out of steam. I'm not quite sure what happened there except maybe my lack of a real lunch caught up with me.  So I walked a little bit.  Now, usually my walking is much slower than running but yesterday, they were pretty close in time. 

OH OH OH OH, I forgot to mention. I ordered an Ipod Shuffle because my arm strap for my phone caused a LOT of chaffing and who wants that during a 1/2 Marathon. So I had the shuffle loaded up and clipped it to my shirt.  I don't know but it felt strange to not be carrying anything heavy (phone, water bottle, nothing).  SO off I went.  At about mile 2 I started running again when some pretty awesome music came on my iPod...it was just wonderful.  I ran about 4 of the 5 miles and had a pretty good time.  Of course, having a cheerleader at the beginning of the run helped (there was a young girl in her teens who was walking home from school and clapped for me. I've seen her a couple times and she always stops walking and claps and says way to go...such a sweetheart).

Random thought for today:
MAKE IT A POINT TO STOP AND CHEER SOMEONE ELSE ON.  IT CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE NOT ONLY IN THEIR DAY BUT IN YOUR DAY ALSO BECAUSE IT ALWAYS FEELS GOOD TO SPREAD CHEER.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

CRASHING

Crashing.

The term used when the emotions and jubilation of an event leads to a low the next day.

Did I crash today?  A little.  After the high from yesterdays Federal Employee Association's Federal Employee of the Year Luncheon (No, I didn't win for the area but I was the nominee from SPAWAR which in and of itself is a HUGE HONOR) and then going to see a sweet little girl who was born on Monday, I went home and crashed. 

The last week (as in 7 days) has been filled with so much emotion and emotion and emotion that it was inevitable that I would crash.  From talking to an old friend (which warmed my heart) to Janessa getting accepted to CONVERSE College, to my Mom coming to visit, an unplanned extra .5 miles for my 9 mile run on Saturday, LJ's first T-Ball game, my husband being his usual sweet self and then the luncheon yesterday one could assume correctly that I am WORN OUT.

So it's Wednesday.  What is a girl to do?  I SHOULD go run but there is supposed to be storms in the area so I think it will be a night of inside exercise (read: situps, push ups, lunges, jumping jacks, mountain climbers and planks) and then a healthy dinner and I will be good to go.

Random thought:
Always know that after an emotional high is bound to be some down time. Use that down time to refresh yourself vice feeling let down.  It's much healthier to rest and refresh than get depressed.  Besides, why be depressed or down..I am a daughter of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.

Monday, May 7, 2012

BUT I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE ANGRY

Wow, I received this in my inbox this morning and it hit me very hard.

This hit me right between the eyes.  And right in my heart.  How many times do I TRY to be forgiving but it just doesn't happen. I mean, I TRY but I am not successful.  Don't get me wrong, nothing has happened recently but I think everyone has a time and person in their past who they have been angry with and then had to go on without an explanation or apology from that person.  How many times have we done this and wondered why and never REALLY forgiven that person.  What right do I have to NOT forgive?  I mean, JESUS CHRIST DIED ON THE CROSS to forgive my sins.  I have NO RIGHT to not forgive others!!!


I'm copying it here but you can read the entire blog at http://www.proverbs31.org/devotions/i-have-right-be-angry-2012-05/

 

May 7, 2012
By Tracie Miles
"Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires." James 1:19-20 (NLT)
I had been lied to, betrayed and hurt. I was angry, and thought I had every right to be.
Day after day, anger crushed my desire to forgive. Although I had asked God to fill my heart with mercy, my mental list of reasons I should be mad kept overriding my empty prayers.
It was as if voices in my head were arguing with each other. One tried to convince me I was correct in feeling angry; the other tried to persuade me that mercy was the right choice.
For months, the loudest voice was the one that aligned with my damaged emotions, and unfortunately the one I listened to. Yes, I have a right to be angry. Anyone would agree.
Listening to the voice of bitterness and unforgiveness, I started lashing out in my actions with impatience and unkindness. Oh, I could play the good-Christian-girl for a while, masking my feelings. But if something was said or done to trigger my suppressed hurt, hostility and resentment would catapult to the surface.
Reading our key verse from James one morning, I felt God urging me to realize the misleading direction my emotions were taking me, and damage they were doing. I couldn't help but notice how it says "everyone" should be slow to speak and slow to anger.
This truth from God's Word left no room for my excuses or righteous indignation, even though I felt like my anger was justified for being wronged. And then a few verses later, I read James 1:22: "Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says" (NIV).
I knew that from a worldly perspective, I had every right to be angry. But from God's perspective, my anger was adding to the sin of the situation. My unforgiveness was keeping me from living out the reality of the Gospel in my own life—by extending the same mercy and forgiveness God has given me through Jesus.
Through the words of James, God softened my heart, making me aware that although I said I'd forgiven this person with my words, I had not forgiven with my heart and it was time to do so and move on.
In every area of life, including managing our most powerful emotions, God tells us to be quick to listen (to Him and others), slow to speak and slow to become angry. As we apply these practices in our relationships, we become 'doers' of His Word, not just 'hearers' and that leads to the righteousness God desires in each of us.
Dear Lord, please forgive me for harboring anger in my heart. Equip me with a supernatural ability to forgive those who have hurt me and to guard my heart when old emotions threaten to surface. Strip my heart of anger and replace it with joy. Thank You for Your mercy. Help me be more merciful because of You. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

My thoughts on this one:  TRULY FORGIVE!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

MY FIRST BLISTER

So this morning I woke up at 6am and headed out the door for my 9 mile long run in preparation for the DIVA 1/2 Marathon in two weeks.  Thinking I had figured out a 9 mile route in my head, I headed out.  Two hours later I quickly noticed I had miscalculated.  My run was almost a half mile longer.  No biggie though.  Right before I started the last mile I saw two geese with baby chicks...THANK YOU LORD, THAT MADE ME SMILE.
Three hours later I notice the blister...its my first one from running...sort of a badge of honor.
Thought for today:
Watch for the simple things in life...cause they can make your day!!
And don't worry about the blisters, they mean you have accomplished something!!!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

BEAUTIFUL MORNING, BEAUTIFUL DAY

It was such a beautiful morning this morning. Even with traffic snarled up something terrible, it was just so pretty outside.  After a wonderful nights sleep, I'm ready to tackle the day.

First, Mom is on her way here! SOOOO HAPPY!  I can't wait to see her.  I want to show her my quilt.  Share with her Janessa's accomplishments.  Let my husband give her a hard time(like he always does...in fun of course) and see my little boy give Mamaw a big hug and show her all his jets.  And of course, watch Molly and Jack chase squirrels.

My random thought:

God is just amazing.  His blessings come in all shapes, sized and colors.  Be thankful for EVERYTHING in your life...good and bad because a wise man once said to his wife when he was going to Afghanistan "God's got this!"  And I believe it!  God's got this!


Wednesday, May 2, 2012

WHAT A COUPLE OF DAYS!!!

WOW is about all I can say about the last few days.

First, my stepdaughter Janessa was accepted into Converse College and will be leaving home to swim for the Lady Valkyries come this fall.  WOW, so happy for her.  THAT was a big event in our life.

My running has been taken to another level.  I'm upping my mileage again this week.  My long run this weekend is supposed to be 9 miles.  ACK!  I KNOW I can do it and proved it to myself on Monday when I was running.  My good friend Katie gave me some awesome advice and I put it into use on Monday and didn't walk once during my Monday night training run.  THAT is huge for me.  Now I do need to make sure my music is set correctly cause there's nothing worse than a not so tempo song for a tempo run...ugh.  BUT, I know that Saturday morning at 6am, I'm going to head out and knock out 9 miles.  Okay, maybe it will be 6:30am...lol.

I spoke with a dear old friend yesterday and that made my heart smile.  It's wonderful when you can talk to someone from your high school and college days and it's like time has stood still and you have only been apart for hours vice decades.

I also had a friend from my high school days post a very sweet post on my wall on facebook and really touched my heart.  Thank you Michelle!  Maybe someday we can get together and do a race just for fun.

My random thought for today:

Never be afraid to reach out to old friends and talk to them or simply say "Hello".  Don't let years go by and regret not popping in and saying hello.  You might just miss a blessing.

Monday, April 30, 2012

LET GO AND LET GOD

Let Go and Let God.

Wow, that is easier said than done.

Letting Go and Letting God...what happens when we stop listening to our little voice in our head and start relying on God?  Let me tell you:  I did an 8 mile run this weekend...well, okay, I ran a bit over 6 of the 8 miles and walked some.  But a very wise lady told me the secret to long distance running...it's mental.  Her husband who is a very wise United States Marine told her to ask herself two things:  Can I breathe?  Am I hurting anywhere?  He was right, it is mental (thank you Dave and Katie...you guys are awesome).  So although I didn't read her post on facebook until after the run on Saturday, I was thinking the same thing...it is mental. When I wanted to walk I kept thinking "why am I walking, I'm okay".  I made it a LOT further than I thought I ever would.  It's all mental!!!

So is worrying.  IT IS MENTAL!  When we worry about things in our lives, we are letting our mind control us.  Why not let go and let God do his work?  In the Bible it says if we had faith the size of a mustard seed we could move a mountain.  WOW!  So why do we worry about things?  If we are truly putting our trust in God then we shouldn't worry about tomorrow.  I know its difficult sometimes to hand things over to God but if we think about it this way it may be easier:

If God can create the world and all the things in it in 6 days, why can't I let him take care of my needs and desires?  Why should I worry? I know I can trust God to do what's best for me and what is in HIS PERFECT will for my life!!!

Friday, April 27, 2012

RAMBLINGS OF A RUNNER

So lately I've upped my mileage.  That is a good thing.  I had a gentleman at work ask me yesterday who I was running with.  Um, myself?  The gentleman then asks "Why doesn't your husband run with you".  Me: "Um, because he hates running".

Okay, so to be fair, my husband did 20 years in the Navy and HAD to run.  And like me, he never liked it while he was in the Navy and like me, he isn't built like Usain Bolt.  So running isn't really in our gene's.

However, just because my husband doesn't like to run, doesn't mean I can't run with someone else.  And I have a few times.  I mean, he pumps iron at the gym with his buddy...and honestly, I've never wanted to lift weights. I find it boring.  He finds it challenging.  He hates running, I find it challenging.  So I have run with others a few times.  Once with Sarah, a couple times with my Mom and a couple times with Yvette.  Now, with Sarah, we are about the same height and we were both young runners so we were compatible as far as our strides go but with busy schedules it is difficult to get together.  My mom is a bit shorter than me so my steps were shuffles and so we aren't compatible runners (she is either too fast for me or our steps aren't ever the same).  Then there is Yvette.  SHE IS FAST!  THAT GIRL CAN RUN!  So needless to say, the penguin is pretty far behind the jackrabbit there.

But that's not the reason I run alone.  I run alone because it's my ME time.  A time for me to spend time in prayer...A time for my mind to wander...A time for me to solve all the worlds problems...A time to just veg out and take in the beautiful scenery.  It's my downtime.  It is a stress reliever and I feel wonderful after a GOOD run.  It rejuvenates my spirit.  It pumps me up a bit.  It makes me not so hungry (I know, that is weird but true, I'd rather drink a smoothie of fruit vice dinner after a run). Besides, running with my husband would turn into a competition and I don't need that. We did run together once when we were both in the Navy and well, lets just say he's better(faster) at it than me and I never want him to see me stop running because I'm tired.

Random thought for today:
DO WHAT YOU WANT FOR EXERCISE.  WHETHER IT'S RUNNING, WALKING, WEIGHT LIFTING, SWIMMING OR ZUMBA, IT DOESN'T MATTER. WHAT MATTERS IS YOU ARE MOVING.  AND DO IT TO MAKE YOURSELF HEALTHIER, NOT BECAUSE SOMEONE SAYS YOU SHOULD.  EXERCISE BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

BITTERNESS...OH BOY!

Okay, this one was difficult to write.

Bitterness.

How many of us women suffer from bitterness on occasion?

I know that I can sometimes feel it creeping up on me.  And it is NOT a pleasant feeling.

However, one thing I do know is that when bitterness comes creeping into my heart, it's NOT of God. Therefore if it is NOT OF GOD, then it is from Satan and I am going to fight & refuse to let it into my heart.

The sermon at our church last Sunday was about God letting trials happen to those He has chosen.  IF I am doing what God wants me to do then the devil gets mighty upset.  I truly believe that bitterness is from the devil and is in direct result of us doing what God wants us to do.  Satan's plan is to derail us at every turn.

So what can we do about it?  Think about these questions:

1. Why am I getting bitter?

2. What is causing me to feel this way.  Is there an overabundance of "ME" and "I" answers to those questions?  If so, maybe this is a bit on the self centered side????  (OH YEAH!)

3. If we are getting bitter because of something our spouse is or is not doing then how serious is it really?  In the grand scheme of things is this major???  Or is it merely because things just aren't what "WE" want them to be?  I know for a fact I am guilty of this.  For example, the other day,  "I" asked my husband to take our son to the gym with him so "I" could run in our neighborhood and he didn't have a problem with that.but then he called me during lunch the next day and changed the plans which made "ME" change "MY" plans because "I" didn't want "MY" son to stay at daycare too long.  Now, the first part was okay...but did you notice the second part of my reaction to my husband...completely self centered!!!

Notice all the "I" and "ME" statements there?  Was this a big deal?  In the grand scheme of things: NO.  BUT "I" was being petty.  "I" was inconvenienced. "I" was stewing over something that happened a couple days prior (which really wasn't a big deal either if I really think about it) and now "I" was getting bitter towards the man I love.  WRONG!!!! WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!!

"I" was designed by GOD to be my husbands helpmate.  "I" am supposed to support him.  "I" was made to love him not get bitter about things he does.  "I" am WRONG! So "I" have to change my attitude about it.  "I" am responsible for "MY" own feelings and it's WRONG for me to get bitter.

So what did I do?  I expressed my frustrations with my  wonderful husband and things are better now.  He understands my frustrations and the situation is over.  But I know that I will be fighting this because it's the way the devil wants it.  Satan doesn't want me to show love and kindness and patience to my dear husband.  But God does and that's who I am going to follow.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

SALT

My post today is about SALT.  After I ran the other day, I noticed a lot of salt on my skin.  Hum. I never really thought much about it before but for some reason it stuck in my mind and made me think of God.  Which, honestly, something making me think of God can't be a bad thing.  But it got me thinking.  What is SALT?

Salt.  That seasoning we are supposed to limit in our daily intake. (oh yeah, sodium, bad bad bad) BUT it makes food have more flavor if used in correctly.

Salt.  That stuff that is all over your body after a great workout. (um feels really weird)

Salt. What we are supposed to be in this world. WOW!  That thing that we are constantly trying to limit or to get off our bodies is what we are compared to in God's word.  Salt.  In the 5th chapter of Matthew verse 13 the Bible says:

You are the salt of the earth: but if the salt has lost its savor, how shall it be salted? it is thereafter good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.  Matthew 5:13

Have you ever tasted salt that has lost its savor?  It's useless.  It has no effect on the food it is put on.  So are we when we become useless in this world.  So if WE have lost our savor we have no effect on those around us.  We are to be like salt. Adding flavor to the world around us. Enhancing the flavor of our daily lives.

So go out today and be salt in the world.  Show God's love, make a difference. Spice up the world with goodness and mercy and show the world that being a Christian is a GOOD thing, not a bad thing.

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

QUIET TIME

Last night after I did my 5 miles in prep for the 1/2 Marathon I'm doing later in the month of May and after I took my Molly girl for her walk (another mile) I arrived home and it was quiet.  REALLY quiet.  Jon and LJ were at the YMCA, Janessa was at the pool coaching then off to Sylvan to prep for the SAT...and it was just Molly and I at home.  Alone.  No TV.  No kids laughing.  No husband needing anything.  No TV (oh I said that already didn't I).

It was quiet.  Now, 6 years ago, this was all normal.  I lived in our home for 5 years before Jon and Janessa were able to join me and before LJ was born.  But in May of 2006, Janessa came to live with us, Jon moved home after retiring in August and LJ was born in September.  Since then, there has RARELY been quiet in our home.  Last night I had almost 2 solid hours of quiet.  THAT never happens.

So what did I do?  Well, I had already started dinner. The house was already clean.  I can't work on my quilt until I go back to class on Thursday because I'm kind of stuck.  So I did what any Mom does when she's faced with complete and utter quiet...I walked around trying to find things to do.  I said some prayers.  I made sure dinner was going to be ready. I worked on reloading my Kindle. I took my post-workout shower.  And I was at a loss for something to do.  It was strange.  It was un-nerving.  I was NOT comfortable in that much quiet time.

Random thought:

WHEN FACED WITH QUIET TIME SPEND IT WISELY. IT DOESN'T COME AROUND OFTEN.  ENJOY IT. MAKE THE MOST OF IT.  RELISH THE NOT SO QUIET TIMES BECAUSE BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, THE KIDS WILL BE GROWN AND YOU WILL MISS THE NOISE.

Monday, April 23, 2012

WHAT IS A SCAR?

Scars! What is a scar to you?

For a long time, I have worried about the physical scars on my body.  I was always ashamed of having so many scars. There's the one from when I had surgery as a baby that is now almost a foot long on my side just below my waist.  There's the one on my ankle from an IV when I was a baby.  Then I have the one from my knee surgery back when I was 6. Now, that's not all the scars, those are just a few of the physical scars that I have and that are visible a good portion of the time depending on what I'm wearing. Do they bother me?  Well, sometimes I get a little self conscious but they are what makes me who I am today.

But what about the emotional ones? What about the scars from lost friendships, betrayals, failures, abuse, and the other things that make up emotional scars? It took a long time for me to realize it but a scar is actually a GOOD thing.  It is a sign that the body has healed. And the scar or healed broken bone is actually stronger than what was there before. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not an advocate for getting scars intentionally.

The same goes for the emotional scars.  When you are hurt, God listens and puts a scar in the place of the hurt.  BUT, only if you let him.  And by letting him I mean: don't revisit the reason the scar is there over and over again.  When you get a bug bite or other scrape or scratch, what happens if you keep scratching the scab off?  The wound doesn't get a chance to heal!  The same goes with our emotional hurts.  If we keep revisiting the event that hurt us deeply then the wound will never heal.  It will continue to stay there and can even get infected which can cause more problems. There is a time for mourning something that has been lost, someone who has left our life for whatever reason or our own inability to do something correctly causing emotional hurt HOWEVER, to go on for years carrying that hurt and anger will only hurt you more in the end.  And why would we want to do that?  Does a mosquito bite itch?  Yes! Sometimes bad.  What happens if you scratch it?  It feels kind of good to scratch it but that doesn't help the bite heal up, it only prolongs the suffering.

So my other -NOT-SO-RANDOM-THOUGHT for today:

Stop picking the scabs off your wounds.  Let the great healer, our Lord heal up the hurts and wounds.  AND STOP PICKING AT THE SCAB!!! Wear your scars proudly.  Never be afraid to tell your story, you never know whose heart you will touch.

COURAGEOUS & A COUNTRY GRIL

Jon and I watched the movie Courageous....wow!  That was an incredible movie.  LJ fell asleep in my arms during the movie which was just sweet.  He is growing up so fast.  But before he went to sleep he asked me if I would cry if he died.  Oh GOOD-NESS.  Of course I would.  Then he said "But Mommy, I would be with Jesus so you should be happy".  Oh my little guy is such a sweet kid. He's right, I have the comfort of knowing that he would be with Jesus but I would still cry.

Jon and I enjoyed the movie.  VERY touching.

Thank God I'm a Country Girl:  Okay, so a lot of you may not know it, but I did grow up on a farm...sort of.  My daddy had a farm and I would go see him every other weekend growing up. So since my wonderful cousin Michelle lived next door, we did a lot of stuff on the farm. Yes, I fed chickens, we had pigs, we planted corn, stripped tobacco, weeded tobacco fields, had some guineas and turkeys that were a pain.  AND most of all, we spent an incredible amount of time in the woods.  And what happens when you are in the woods a lot?  You get ticks.  Now I HATE ticks.  HATE HATE HATE HATE THEM!  Fast forward 30 years and my wonderful husband and I decide to take Molly for a walk.  Jon was wanting to look for blackberries (he knows I love them) so we went traveling down a drainage easement in the woods to see if we could find any.  Nice walk. At least that's what I thought.

Then Sunday after church Janessa asks me what that black thing is on my shoulder (granted I had no clue).  Jon comes over to check it out and was about to tell me I needed to go to the doctor to get that growth checked out...when he starts singing the Brad Paisley song about checking you for ticks.  I had a tick...on my shoulder.  GREAT!  FREAKED ME OUT!  It took a few minutes to get that little sucker to release (and it luckily was just a little tiny one) but still, I"m STILL itching and freaking out almost a day later.  But even though I STILL consider myself a country girl, I will NEVER grow accustomed to ticks. Give me skunks and snakes any day.  Make me feed the pigs, collect eggs, run from turkeys, I don't care...but keep the ticks away from me!!!

So my random thought for today:

Be courageous in all you do. Stand up for what is right. Comfort those who need comforting.  Hug those who need hugging and never forget where you came from.



Saturday, April 21, 2012

MILES TO GO BEFORE I SLEEP

Well, my son had other plans for me this morning.  Instead of my 8 mile run this morning, which I had plans to cut to 7, LJ  got up early so no run this morning...but hey, at least I was able to watch Monsters, Inc! Right?

So this afternoon is my friends son's birthday party and THEN I get to do my 7-8 mile run/walk (cause we all know I WILL be walking some of it, right?).  It's all good though.  Quality time spent with an adorable little boy who doesn't like for Mommy to sleep.

My random thought today:
It is not important to stick to a regimented schedule.  Enjoy the diversions and unexpected turns for that is really living.

God be with you all today!
Jess <3

Friday, April 20, 2012

A CHILDS LAUGHTER

Oh to be a child again.  I'm sitting here getting ready to start basting my quilt listening to LJ and Cody (my son's best friend who lives next door) and the laughter is infectious.  Although there are many times when I long for peace and quiet in my home, this is not one of those times. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE to hear my kids laugh.  When LJ and Janessa play (without fighting) it is so fun to just listen to the laughter.  And to hear the boys playing and laughing is such a joy.

They say that Laughter is the best medicine...and they are right.  Just listen to Cody and LJ laugh and you cannot help but laugh too!

TO GOD BE THE GLORY: CHANGES



Wow, looking back over the last year a lot of changes have happened in my life. God has definitely blessed our family and me in particular. Thank you Lord for everything.  To GOD be the GLORY!!!

1. Jon and I renewed our wedding vows. WOO HOO!.  After 10 years I FINALLY wore my dress. And let me say, my man looked mighty handsome in his tux not to mention our son in his tux (along with his cousin) looked adorable, Janessa and Jodi were beautiful, Jason was handsome and the rest of the party looked amazing too! The night was magical but I forgot to do some things during the ceremony that I really wanted to do, like give Janessa my original wedding band. I did give it to her a few weeks later but I would like to have done it during the ceremony (love seeing her and her daddy get all emotional...lol). When I married her Daddy 10 years ago, I gained a daughter that I wish I could claim as mine.  I am blessed to have been given the chance to assist in raising her.  I know she has a mother already but I hope she knows I love her like my own and am very proud of the young lady she has become.  I am sad that many parts of our families weren't able to be with us that evening but we did have a wonderful time with family and friends. Thank you ALL for coming that night.  We were so happy to share that evening with y'all. 

2.  LJ accepted Jesus into his heart, Jon was baptized and we joined a new church.  For 7 years we had attended a church here locally but never felt like it was a church home.  Well, the injury in #3 led us to Crowfield Baptist Church. When I woke up on June 26, 2011 in a lot of pain I just couldn't go to the church we attended (God had other plans for me) so we opted to visit CBC instead.  Jon immediately liked it!  And now almost a year later we are involved and really feel like it's a home for our family. We love the people! Jon has made lots of new friends (buddies who love to fish also) and I'm now teaching Sunday School and AWANA.  I LOVE Children's ministries....and I love the kids I have the privilege to work with every week. Not to mention we have the most amazing Children's Ministry Director on the planet!  Love you Crystal!

 3.  I started running.  STOP THE PRESS!!!!  Yes, Jess, the woman who spent 10 years in the worlds greatest Navy and HATED running so much she swam the PT test using the backstroke is now a runner. (honestly, I HATED running!!!)  After I finished the Couch to 5k program on June 1, 2011, I signed up for a 1/2 Marathon at the suggestion of a couple of crazy co-workers who said I could do it.  (Why do I let these guys talk me into stuff??)  I was skeptical but their enthusiasm and encouragement were infectious so I signed up.  On June 25, 2011, Mom and I ran a 5k to benefit a boy I know who has some severe health issues. It was the first 5k I'd ran since my Navy days (and I only did one then).  I ended up pulling my hip flexor in that race. I pushed myself WAY too hard (NOTE TO SELF:  Always warm up, don't go out too fast, don't sprint and always listen to your body).  Two and a half months later (and a month and a half before the 1/2 Marathon) I was STILL in Physical Therapy.  I did end up doing the 1/2 Marathon and I did finish (Okay Tyson and Ron, you were right, I could do it..thanks guys). Tyson, Chris and her daughter Megan ran also that day along with Lori and her sweet husband Charlie. Unfortunately I didn't get to catch up with everyone (since I DID finish later than them..lol...Hey I said I was a Penguin not a Kenyan) but we did have a blast and I GOT HOOKED on running. Next up: Diva 1/2 Marathon in May with Chris, Megan, Yvette and Tonya (a friend from high school).

4. Janessa is graduating high school. DOH!  Cannot believe that the little girl who I met 12 years ago is now graduating high school.  She came home last night with her cap and gown and man, I almost cried!!!  Her Daddy just said "Man"...I think he's definitely in shock.

5. I am learning to quilt. Nuff said there. My mom is amazed that I am learning to sew.  LOL. She honestly thought I was from Mars while raising me because I didn't want to learn to sew or cook and now I'm not bad at either of them.  Love you Mom!  I am almost ready to start the actual quilting of my first project.  I am basting right now (would be finished if I read the directions correctly).  Nervous about the first one but excited also.  ALREADY have planned out the next two quilts. One for my step-daughter using her old t-shirts to commemorate her years in school and swimming and then I think I am going to make a special quilt but I've not figured that one out completely yet so I'm not going to say anything about what I'm thinking until I'm sure what I am doing (stay tuned). After that, it's one each for my nieces and nephew and other family members.  It's a slow process but I am loving it.  Plus the classes at People Places & Quilts are a blast and I love working with the people there.

6. I have found some wonderful friends.  I am closer now to my cousin Teresa that I met about 15 years ago. She and I are two peas in a pod almost literally (GO CATS!!!).  I also talk to my other cousin Michelle more nowadays thanks to Facebook and have my best sister Jodi always on my mind.  She inspires me daily with her ability to juggle family and staying in amazing physical condition...you rock sis!  I am so blessed to have such wonderful women like these three and my girlfriend from work Carel and my neighbor Bambi to count as friends/sisters.  Add on top of that the ladies I've formed friendships with thru work, church, running and mutual friends (Lori, Yvette, Chris, Crystal, Samantha, Meg, Charity, Arline, Sarah, Natalie, Jen, and many more...) and I'm just swimming in girlfriends...something that has never happened to me before.

7. On a sad note, I found out recently that one of my closest friends from high school and a gentleman I dated a couple times in college died a few weeks ago.  Matt was such a wonderful guy and I loved him very much. We lost touch when I joined the Navy and he got married but I always wondered how he was doing.  He had a beautiful smile that always could warm up the coldest room.  It is an understatement to say his death affected me very much.  Matt, I will be praying for your family and I'm sorry you aren't with us anymore. I pray you are at peace now and resting in our Lords arms.   I wish you knew how many people's lives you affected by your ever present smile and how many people truly loved you.  I know we lost touch many years ago but I never ever stopped caring about you and wondering how you were doing. I will be praying for your family and your beautiful children.  I know they all miss you very much (as do I).  Hugs and much love my friend, you are missed immensely.

So, that's the last year in a nutshell...I know I didn't hit all the events but as you can see there were some big changes and events all of which affected me personally.  I'm going to pick up on Jess' Random Thoughts and try to be creative in it.  Today's random thought isn't so random but here it goes:

Be a blessing to someone. Encourage them. Smile at them. Hug them. Tell them you love them. Most of all, show them the love that Jesus showed us.

Thanks to Lori for fueling the blogging fire in me.  Girl, you amaze me!  If you have a chance, check out her blog.  She's just starting out but has some great insight and is such a sweet soul (http://lorithelittlerunaway.blogspot.com/).

Have a wonderful day everyone and see you soon.

Jess